Numb.

Numb.

Have you ever felt that numb sensation while sitting, working or eating? It takes you to great depth and you start having all the doubts that exist in this world.

You start having doubts on yourself. You feel inferior and insecure of God knows what. Even when people are at fault, you adamantly take it on yourself.

Are you able to relate?

Even after accepting that you are the queen of your thoughts and you respect yourself, this shit happens. In a way, it is helpful and important. It takes you in a world where you can think and ponder about the surroundings. You evolve and come out with a clear picture in your head. Then onwards, you start your journey again, with a bang!

Being a positive person that I am, let us stop talking about the good effects of this numbness because what I really want to discuss is that this numbness, silence, aloofness, and calmness is weird. People take it as a sign of sickness or may be anger, cold war, discontentment or dissatisfaction with things or people. They ask you innumerably about what is bothering us? But hey, nothing is wrong. We are just spending time with our self and this is exactly similar to nature’s call. We didn’t planned it but now it has come, we are happy to have it.

Anyway, maybe being quiet is not acceptable in the society.

Coming back to the point, have you ever gone in the solitude? It is a much better space than normal because we don’t feel like talking and conversing, which is a good thing.

In my case, where 4 out of 10 times, I regret saying and doing things, numbness is a boon to me. I just sit at my place quietly in my own beautiful and calm world, where no distraction works on me. Where voices and poking is prohibited. Where I just write and do whatever I want.

If you ever felt the same, do tell me your story and what you think of it!